This picture sums things up.
My mom is spending the night tonight and my brother is over at a family friends’ house. We are making sense of things slowly but surely. It’s good to have the support of family and friends. It has made all the difference.
Today we were out and about getting things done related to paperwork and “business” stuff until 9:30 pm. It was a long day.
I’m off to bed early, and hoping to get a little more work done tomorrow but also to do some yard work and maybe go on a bike ride.
Sorrow August 18, 2006
Support August 17, 2006
Thanks to everyone who has been there for us through the last week. My dad’s funeral was Tuesday. He got full military honors at the cemetary and it was a beautiful ceremony. We had family come into town starting last weekend including Jered’s parents and Uncle. Everyone has gone home now, so its the first day that without tons of people around, which feels very weird. We are sorting out paperwork and all of the “business” that goes along with the death of a family member. It is so weird.
I’m actually feeling quite a bit better. I have my moments, but things are starting to get back to a state closer to normal.
I really appreciate all of the support and comfort you all have extended to me and my family. It has helped a lot!
My dad August 9, 2006
My dad passed away yesterday at 4:07 pm. We don’t know what happened. It was too quick, he was in the hospital for neck pain, his biopsy came back after he died, it was large cell lymphoma stage IV. He was scheduled to start chemo in a few weeks. We don’t know what killed him, his heart just couldn’t take it anymore and his blood pressure and heart rate went and his lungs failed him. They think it might have been a pulmonary embolism. I hope it was painless. We left the hospital two hours before he went code blue. We thought he was getting moved out of the ICU, they said he was doing better and that his surgery was healing well. He wanted chicken and canteloupe for dinner. My mom fed him pineapple and liver and onions for lunch. He was in and out of it but the morphine made him pretty sleepy. I didn’t get to tell him about our trip. I didn’t get to hug him because I was afraid to touch him and hurt him. It hurts so bad.
I love you dad. We don’t know what to do without you.
